The Beginning of the End...

It is impossible to put into words, the feeling of knowing that you can't stop a relationship coming to an end.. The beginning of the end connotes the end of an era, of having to move on from someone you held onto... The shadow of darkness surrounds you in the hope that it would disappear or it never transpired... We refuse to ignore what or who we care about, emotions well up and sorrow seeps in.. You laugh more, to hide the ruefulness in your eyes.. Frequented with wakefulness, gloomly days, alcohol becomes your new spouse .. But remember, all good things eventually come to an end, love and lust do not last too long.. If you know in your heart that you gave it your all, well that should last you a lifetime of sereneity.. What happened on the other end and questioning and pondering over why & what went wrong is 'none of your business'....

Woody Allen said; 'To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer....'

It is our prerogative to look further ahead and seek the wondrous opportunities life has to offer.. You can never predict the future and never change the past, but you can get yourself together and know that we are capable of making the same mistakes, or having yet another relationship which has no future..Does it matter, really?? We do what we could, moving on is simple, it’s what you leave behind that makes it so difficult... Somethings are just not worth your time and effort, it just wasn't meant to be.. So get up, walk again with your head held high, stride away with confident steps, leaving the anguish and pain that seems to falter your steps.. Just walk ... continue to a new beginning with a smile and enter a new era !!

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.~Dr. Seuss

Wonder where the 'romance' is ??

This goes out to all my lovely Single and Not-So-Single Girlfriends...A little something for you to ponder on !!

It was back in the 40's -60's when you would imagine being charmed, read poetry to, serenaded, wined and dined (lets not go dutch all the time), doors held out for you, walking hand-in-hand (not a great fan of hand holding but...) in celebration of your love/affection for one another....Was it only meant for the Black & White era?? Have we shifted from the theory of having a lover, to having an inmate trapped in a loveless relationship ... 

Have we had enough of romance..?? Do you wonder sometimes, how it would feel to be treated like a lady apart from the occassional women's liberation 'emotional blow-up' rising in our gut...Is it that we have tragically bid farewell to generations of sophisticated and poised forms of dating.. Has dating become as monotonous as being monogamous :p !!

Have men gotten used to the idea of taking it down a notch...Is Romance a surrealistic idea now?? Wasn't romance the key to pusuing happiness in a relationship? Is it too much to ask, to be treated elegantly and with a pinch of 'romance' ??? Oscar Wilde said “They spoil every romance by trying to make it last forever”...Well I'm not asking forever or all the time, but every now and then won't hurt your fragile ego now, WOULD IT?? 

To all the single and the not-so-single boys, live it up and be a gentleman..You will have fewer vexed relationships/partners .. !!

Life could be so blissful, if we wanted it to be !!

We desire objects/individuals that appeal to us knowing how difficult it is to attain them...it is paradoxical that we lead a life of constant sorrow and suffering as against that of divinity and bliss..we aim to achieve the unachievable, but is there something/someone so impossible to have? Is it the thrill of the chase that we want it so bad? But are we really happy when we possess it/them? 

Do we think that our life would be complete with it/them?  Why do we question ourselves constantly, and tell ourselves; that we deserve better and more than life provides us? Isn't it true that we make OUR OWN DESTINY !! Yes, we do..by our actions...'what we are doing today, will set our trajectories for tomorrow'...

Why do we complicate matters by adding objects to our wishlists, mine's never ending with with atleast 2 added every fortnight!! Leonardo DaVinci said that 'Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication', he wasnt born in the 21st century, I bet the poor guy would have a heart attack looking at the glamour and the day today rant we are accustomed to...

But then again, we thrive with complications and in solving them...can we ever go back to being uncomplicated? Our generation has been a complex one and to decipher our unique behaviour's is a task beyond many psychologists and researchers... Is it that we feel a need to prove to ourselves that we can go beyond our reach... Do we enjoy being complex and living life differently? But are we really doing so?  Maybe - maybe not, but the questions in our tiny heads collide against each each bringing about new dilemmas..

Wouldn't life be blissful, if we wanted it to be?? haha...lots of questions...GO FIGURE !!

Love Song- Sara Bareilles

Head under water, And they tell me to breathe easy for a while... Breathing gets harder, even I know that, made room for me, but its too soon to see, if i'm happy in your hands....i'm unusually hard to hold on to, blank stays at blank pages, no easy way to say this..you mean well, but you make this hard on me....i'm not gonna write you a love song, cause you asked for it..cause you need one you see... i'm not gonna write you a love song, cause you  tell me it's make or break in this, if you're on your way..i'm not gonna write you to stay..if all you have is leaving, i'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.....

I learned the hard way, that they all say the things you wanna hear...and my heart sinks deep down under you and your twisted words, your help just hurts, you are not what I thought you were..hello to high and dry convinced me to please you, made me think that I need this too.....i'm trying to let you hear me as I am...i'm not gonna write you a love song 'cause you asked for it, cause you need one, you see...i'm not gonna write you a love song cause you  tell me it's make or break in this,i'm not gonna write for you to stay..if all you have is leaving, i'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today.....

Promise me you'll leave the light on, To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone 'Cause I believe there's a way you can love me because I say..I won't write you a love song '...Cause you asked for it, ...'Cause you need one, you see I'm not gonna write you a love song '...Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this, Is that why you wanted a love song 'Cause you asked for it?.... 'Cause you need one, you see I'm not gonna write you a love song ....'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this If you're on your way I'm not gonna write you to stay ....If your heart is nowhere in it I don't want it for a minute ......Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to Write you a love song today...Today

And the dream continues....

Getting a visa stamped for the first time, neva having crossed the Indian borders (if you considering shaking hands with the border security of Pakistan, cross country adventure ;))

It's an exhilarating feeling for me cos it's truly a dream come true, cos a life without adventure is likely to be unsatisfying, but a life in which adventure is allowed to take whatever form it will, is sure to be short. ..

It does leave me apprehensive of the future to be explored...whoa, now tat's the head rush I love.....Cardiff, sounds like a small french town rather than a welsh township being the capital city of Wales....I've finally crossed over seven seas and reached these foreign lands... It's amazin to keep ur head back n feel the soft breeze on ur face n tat electro magnetic feeling runs a chill down my spine.... mild weather that is often cloudy, wet and windy, 'oh the pitter patter of the rain',shop like neva before n meet more international citizens than welsh or english...i like, i like.....

Can a gurl want more ??? Yes, i always always want more....

Serendipity...

My all time favourite word 'Serendipity'...loved the movie tooo... It means fortunate or desirable discoveries by accident...The movie of course narrates a love story of two people from different walks of life brought together by fate..Aawwwww, how romantic is tat...Well I'm not gonna get all mushy cos i can't relate it to my romantic life since im not romantically inclined towards or with anyone...

What I like most about the word is that it has happened to all of us in some way or the other... meeting your best friend, talking to that boy or gurl you always crushed on in school, meeting that person at gym and having an eye lock, lost in a crowd of people and n seeing tat one smile tat makes ur day(by ur folks, sibling, lover, friend) ,accomplishing tat one thing tat no one ever did, coming across that article in the newspaper that made you join tat course and elevated your career.... I'm sure You got atleast one outta these, didn't you.??. well i got them all...lol....

Believe me it's a blessing in disguise cos fate throws you into moments and situations so unexpectedly and you reminisce them at least once in your lifetime..Now tats what I call a feel good factor... watsay u??

Life as a Geisha....

Geisha (芸者) are beautiful kimono adorned entertainers from Japan who perform arts such as traditional dances and music related..... They are women with grace, subtlety and poise... Maiko (young geisha entertainers) are taught to entertain and please their patrons with their artistic and feminine mannerisms who grow to be the beautiful Geisha's who have won zillions of hearts with their beauty and demeanor...What many don't know and understand is the inner turmoil these women go through...


Geisha's are lonesome and fragile maiko's discarded out of their homes due to poverty.... Being a girl child, in olden days, Geisha's did not have many options but to turn to their profession or be left to die .....Slowly as she became of age,her 'mizuage' -'virginity' would be auctioned amongst thousands and she would be taken by one who would be her patron all her life....After the world war, Japan discontinued this practice but many privately performed such acts for survival.... 


How sad and unfortunate not to be able to think for yourself and to please others all your lives... I strongly disagree calling women; escorts or sex workers... Though there is grounds of commonality between Geisha's and them as each has a story to tell and a past they would rather leave behind never to cross paths with again... These women as wonderful as they are within, are treated with cruelty and looked down upon all their lives... yes, they harden up and show no emotions to the world, but does that mean that they have lost their soul and mind in giving up their lives to be who they are today....


Geisha'ism and Prostitution are innuendos many have pointed fingers at and many who have given it the pride of place... one can have copious discussions on this topic, but search within your heart the answer to what you would do if you were made one in dire circumstances .. I leave you with this thought and hope that never again would you demean a women, no matter what roots she has because she was brought into this world to spread happiness in any given form.....