And the dream continues....

Getting a visa stamped for the first time, neva having crossed the Indian borders (if you considering shaking hands with the border security of Pakistan, cross country adventure ;))

It's an exhilarating feeling for me cos it's truly a dream come true, cos a life without adventure is likely to be unsatisfying, but a life in which adventure is allowed to take whatever form it will, is sure to be short. ..

It does leave me apprehensive of the future to be explored...whoa, now tat's the head rush I love.....Cardiff, sounds like a small french town rather than a welsh township being the capital city of Wales....I've finally crossed over seven seas and reached these foreign lands... It's amazin to keep ur head back n feel the soft breeze on ur face n tat electro magnetic feeling runs a chill down my spine.... mild weather that is often cloudy, wet and windy, 'oh the pitter patter of the rain',shop like neva before n meet more international citizens than welsh or english...i like, i like.....

Can a gurl want more ??? Yes, i always always want more....

Serendipity...

My all time favourite word 'Serendipity'...loved the movie tooo... It means fortunate or desirable discoveries by accident...The movie of course narrates a love story of two people from different walks of life brought together by fate..Aawwwww, how romantic is tat...Well I'm not gonna get all mushy cos i can't relate it to my romantic life since im not romantically inclined towards or with anyone...

What I like most about the word is that it has happened to all of us in some way or the other... meeting your best friend, talking to that boy or gurl you always crushed on in school, meeting that person at gym and having an eye lock, lost in a crowd of people and n seeing tat one smile tat makes ur day(by ur folks, sibling, lover, friend) ,accomplishing tat one thing tat no one ever did, coming across that article in the newspaper that made you join tat course and elevated your career.... I'm sure You got atleast one outta these, didn't you.??. well i got them all...lol....

Believe me it's a blessing in disguise cos fate throws you into moments and situations so unexpectedly and you reminisce them at least once in your lifetime..Now tats what I call a feel good factor... watsay u??

Life as a Geisha....

Geisha (芸者) are beautiful kimono adorned entertainers from Japan who perform arts such as traditional dances and music related..... They are women with grace, subtlety and poise... Maiko (young geisha entertainers) are taught to entertain and please their patrons with their artistic and feminine mannerisms who grow to be the beautiful Geisha's who have won zillions of hearts with their beauty and demeanor...What many don't know and understand is the inner turmoil these women go through...


Geisha's are lonesome and fragile maiko's discarded out of their homes due to poverty.... Being a girl child, in olden days, Geisha's did not have many options but to turn to their profession or be left to die .....Slowly as she became of age,her 'mizuage' -'virginity' would be auctioned amongst thousands and she would be taken by one who would be her patron all her life....After the world war, Japan discontinued this practice but many privately performed such acts for survival.... 


How sad and unfortunate not to be able to think for yourself and to please others all your lives... I strongly disagree calling women; escorts or sex workers... Though there is grounds of commonality between Geisha's and them as each has a story to tell and a past they would rather leave behind never to cross paths with again... These women as wonderful as they are within, are treated with cruelty and looked down upon all their lives... yes, they harden up and show no emotions to the world, but does that mean that they have lost their soul and mind in giving up their lives to be who they are today....


Geisha'ism and Prostitution are innuendos many have pointed fingers at and many who have given it the pride of place... one can have copious discussions on this topic, but search within your heart the answer to what you would do if you were made one in dire circumstances .. I leave you with this thought and hope that never again would you demean a women, no matter what roots she has because she was brought into this world to spread happiness in any given form.....

Is it Reiki....or Us..

I like the word 'Reiki', meaning 'an alternative healing method' & 霊気 "mysterious atmosphere or feeling"...... can one say "Hi, I'm Reiki, an alternate solution to all your hurt and a mysterious air; listening to what you're feeling..."

Let me draw out a comparison chart here, wont bore you I promise...Reiki is the therapy which channelises the energy from the therapist to the human body by the gentle laying of hands...We do that tooooo...ahem ahem, one track mind...... i meant we channelise our energies onto our loved ones for a common healing; of mind, soul and the body...

I know its not me to be so technical; but sometimes we don't realise our actions are sub-consciously our own mystical chakra's doing these wonders... we heal too.... do we really need a spiritual healer to mend our broken hearts, hurt egos, damaged self esteems, and so on..... well the answer is that if you're really screwed up just get out n go get professional help right away ......lol.....but if you're in touch with your mental being and can make that shift in your head to drive out n negate those negative thoughts, you CAN make a difference...to you n me....

Aaaah, when I started writing this blog I had this terrible throbbing, pulsating pain in my head (migraine)... Now that I'm  done, I feel in this process I healed myself... WOW...maybe i shuould take a course in REIKI !!!! watsay....

My first blog...August Rush

I remember writing 'Dear Diary' and expressing my feelings and relaying my day's events in a black diary... I used to secretly think that it was like 'Archie's little black book'...

Well, this day of August I've started a lil something about me again... Lets call this the 'August Rush'...

I always wondered, what was it about blogging that made someone want to pen down thoughts of how they felt ... they needed friends I thought to myself and maybe they are just too wasted...lol... well I am wasted at the moment for sure, but not without friends... my tarot reader told me; there's something suppressing my feelings, thoughts, i care, make them love me and something distances me from them... I always thought that it was since I was changing places for work, studying etc etc... now that I look back, I realize that I have taken bits of them, memories I carry with me, their value contributions to my life... I am what I am today cos of those wonderful people... They know who they are, n still love me despite my fanatical views, for getting after them jokingly, for sitting together holding their hands n crying, for talking to them when they wanted me to and for shutting up n be yelled at (which is let me tell you quite rare)....I now know Its not suppression but me evolving from what they knew of me to something more, i don't distance but maybe the grounds of commonality have lessened by the day.. but that does not mean that i love them any lesser, it merely means; 'I want more out of my life,will you be here for me differently....'

I feel so free n spirited at this moment, full of hope and ambitions for my future... anxiety holds a supreme emotion now...anxiety; to what holds true for me and hope; that all that my dreams (good ones) would be a reality when I wake up..